Oct 20th 2008

Half past 2 am on Oct 20th 2008. Well, today is Monday but what the hell on earth am not sleep yet as by this time normally am already ooze off. Yes, today and last week Monday am on leave. Sure a hell of work when return. Yet not really like before working environment. Maybe it's a bit clumsy as time past by am now 44 years. Nothing much change this day. Financial been pinch up as first step to mortgage house. Financial market still not yet recover from last 2 week shock. Credit crunch to be impact here soon. How soon the west manage to pull away this crunch, the better outlook 2009 will be. Anyhow, Nov 4th US election a major change of Government from Republican to Democrat. Betting side worsen as till now nothing banging happen. Hope for something real bang but still struggle.

Last mid week, little baby body been hit by red rash and mild fever. Already visit Dr twice and no progress make. Trying traditional medicine still fail to remove the red rash. Dr advised 5 day taken to clear this away. Only on Sunday my elder baby and I visit S.Prai City just take her for

drum "lesson". Rush home clear all grounds arrangement, rush out bought some dinner.

Tomorrow Tuesday will cause elder sad as am back to work. Last week she did look for me when am boot up for work at 5am. Trying so hard to explain am to work still she want me to drop her to school just because she can play at the school play ground. Last Friday am work so she miss out and did lash out at her grandpa who drop and fetch her. What can I do just a dream away for $20million 6/52 jackpot. Dream will remain but will of determination may be there when financial really broke now. Last week send my bike for repair. That's cost too much at 140.

Failure to get Saniboy a job. Engineering or what ever dept now except production can take peoples. Indirect head count management stated too much. Sometime wish my wish list to retired and watch the night sky at every weekend. This may charge up my cosmic power to

survive. Something not right now. Dream remain a dream as time approach Xmas. Wish I got a chance to visit some place for Xmas. But not now if mortgage is success full. Because home staff will query our extra income. What ever this may come for after 44 years, let it be.......

Sad day account too much to count.Thus the up cycle soon will bounce back for me. Hope one in a life time I can still get out of payroll name to start up something.

Time to say adios amigo.Almost 3 am now. Till next Oct 20th 2009. Good Morning

Oct 2008

What a time fly by now into October 4th. Financially still bad as it get involvement of both parties family.

Still in holiday mood, as it enter fourth days of fifth day Raya holiday. Yesterday noon did call Rosani, but surprise he did not pick up as phone number change from last 3 years. Later he sms ask who is it. As i reply, he related been 2 months now unemployed. He is doing part time collect scrap plastic and metal. He ask for job if got convey to him. Lately 2 hours ago, I reply there is Engineering tech post been vacant so was prototype when more more people to leaving to Smartrac.

Last month alone, 4 indirect staff left our company. Maybe for better future and a flight away from sick working environment. Think of trying other place but at 45 soon no place will hire. Awaiting for one giant pcb company to setup next year. But look bleak as no degree or at least diploma. Let it be as time may end like that. Time will never change but only if we are to change. Sometime wonder why we can't follow money work for us instead we work for money where spending will not last as every beginning month already empty.

Best pal and working colleague been back to India in rush without official leave. First thought he follow the other new join guy left in a hurried. He did call for return early of Nov. Some property issue and as well may call it quit if some offer came along for him. Anyhow do hope to see him back at least till next year.

Lost my pendrive again. This time not found as drop where also don't know. Hope not get in top people hand as currently company is fighting foe ISA too. Lately, political scenario not change too as time Sept 16th past by and all is just a dream. With current financial situation, nothing will be provided for travelling. Just live on dream or used Google earth and youtube will do everyone dream come through. Still hope can make to visit Lord Bhrama as a yearly event. But it's impossible as time too close yet dare to put hope against hope to there at the year end count down to 2009. Sound ridiculous unless all debt been strike out. Yeah every Saturday and Sunday daydream highly activated,

Another one of best pal colleague to quit this year end after over a decade of working "oversea". Plan and after plan so many plan still a long way to cut short for money working. His intention too sound very well updated as to grow sireh leave. Used in cosmetic cause high demand and good for money as it grow in wild. Just can share his view as don't have any capital to venture. Yesterday, help him upgrade his pc ram to 1.5gb and to register for streamyx. Fascinated him as so many thing can be view such as Youtube and Google earth.

Work load will increase as one part of new material waiting for report if it qualify as alternative to current used.

Something will fishy if to push up this new material even it's compatible. Strong politically lobby has occurred in plant. Sound like silly to put a stop to uncountable force. KPI mania as it need to submit at least one per month.

At least i got something to write about. Anyhow if 2009 can bring change of me, why not me to start up something in agriculture. My target is Onion which mean I am OK for onion King. Hahahahah.

Await for Birthday party at Wengy school on 10th of Oct as on 13th to 17th, examination.

What a big challenge for her as she's been under private tuition. Her parents hope she will progress well into real school term.That's all now 3am just await till 20th of October past by.